Thursday, November 03, 2005

Yet Another Shoe Drops

Yesterday my heart broke into a million pieces. Hopefully music still saves our lives.

yesterday i got so old
i felt like i could die
yesterday i got so old
it made me want to cry
go on go on
just walk away
go on go on
your choice is made
go on go on
and disappear
go on go on
away from here
and i know i was wrong
when i said it was true
that it couldn't be me and be her
inbetween without you
without you
yesterday i got so scared
i shivered like a child
yesterday away from you
it froze me deep inside
come back come back
don't walk away
come back come back
come back today
come back come back
why can't you see?
come back come back
come back to me --- "In Between Days" by The Cure

9 comments:

Ryon said...

"I've been looking so long at these pictures of you, that I almost believe that they're real."

Sorry man.

Valerie - Still Riding Forward said...

Wordless but sending waves of support your way.

Cyrus said...

Seriously, thanks. All positive energy sent my way is graciously accepted.

Dxx said...

Cyrus:
It can, and it will. Just remember that there comes a point when you have to turn off the Damien Rice and the Annie Lennox, flip on some Cher/Madonna, and remember how to smile again.
I'll just skip the platitudes and say sorry to hear it man.
Sending you all the good energy possible.

Anonymous said...

I know that i am the last person in the world you want to hear about. I've been reading your blog every single day since you left. My decisions are haunting me. I would have rather die before breaking your heart the way I did. That The Cure song makes me cry, but who cares about my tears right now when I am the one who made you cry, I am lost, I don't know what to do. You are still the most important person in my so called life, and I couldn't change you and you couldn't change me. And I wonder why it is so hard?, why it hurts so much?. I don't have excuses , only you and I know what we had and what didn't work. I want to heal your heart and I can't, I want to take your place and I can't. I am not looking for people's approval and i am not loking for forgiveness. i have nothing bad to say about you and our relationship....I was the failure, I wasn't enough and I couldn't fix it. From the bottom of my heart...I am sorry.

Rodrigo.

Ryon said...

Man, this stuff is seriously depressing me. I really hope the both of you can figure everything out. Good thoughts your way.

Don't worry about updating. We understand and can wait.

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Anonymous said...

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Stimpy Stu said...

i just puked. Loved the anonymous comments. funny how we survive bad times and (hopefully) are able to see the link to our current good times.